Gratitude…my old friend

Half way through my chemo treatment and I should start to perk up. It has been 8 days since my last infusion and the intense side effects should begin to fade. This last week has been challenging. With anything that negatively affects your physical health, it is not long till your mental health follows.

It seems contradictory that despite being recently diagnosed with cancer I am now wishing my days away…..last chemo is Thursday 21st April. Add on 10 days to climb thr…ough the side effects and beginning of May is my light at the end of this very dark and very long tunnel.

The human spirit is a funny thing, sometimes I can feel the moment a thought or feeling shifts my thinking permanently. It changes from one thing to another and I cannot go back. So now I have morphed into a space I have not occupied before. One where I am having to dig even deeper to move forward, put one foot in front of the other just to exist. This is not a place I wish to occupy but I do know that it is a good thing that I recognise this change. I just want it to be over so I can learn to live in a body I trust, to look in the mirror and not see constant changes, to keep up with my kids and to wake up in the morning feeling normal.

So today more than any other I need to turn my tried and trusted friend: gratitude. I invite you all to share 5 things you are grateful for and challenge you to not feel a positive change in your mind….

1. I am thankful that I don’t have a funny shaped head
2. I am grateful that my kids are too young to remember this
3. I am surprised and grateful that breast cancer has brought my beautiful husband and I closer together
4. I am happy that I have reached the half way mark with chemo
5. I truly grateful that cancer gave me the clarity and strength to share my mental health story

Love you all
xxx

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